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Classical Music / Klassieke MuziekAs a teenager/adolescent, I enjoyed listening to classical music (opera not included). Wilma and Fred supported this by sponsoring my cd-buying habits a bit, on the condition I spent the money on classical music. Mozart, Tchaikovsky, Verdi, Beethoven, Bach... Sometimes I played them when I was laying in bed at night, with the lights out, to be able to fully undergo the music without any distractions.
At some point, about ten years ago, I couldn't listen to them any more. Maarten sometimes played classical music and often I wasn't able to listen to most of it. Even if he picked something light the emotions it evoked where just too much.
My favorite style of music is rock music. It resonates with the emotions I already feel and even when the music is a bit dark, it makes me feel better. In 1999/2000 I was living in The Hague on my own and I was going trough a rough time. I found myself pretty much single, didn't see my friends nearly as often as I used to, didn't have internet for the first 7 months or so and was trying to come to grips that even though my health had somewhat improved after my 'year in bed', I would have to live with a chronic illness and adjust my expectations and dreams for the future. Green Day (Dookie) and the Red Hot Chili Peppers (Blood, Sugar, Sex, Magic and Californication) where my go-to music picks at that time. Dookie can cheer me up any time!
Classical Music works differently for me. Most of the time, it doesn't resonate with the emotions I'm already feeling, but it imposes emotions of it's own. I have to let go and let it overflow me, replacing whatever was there. It's just so powerful, there's no room for anything else. For years, that scared me, so I shunned it. Violins always sound sad to me. I've had enough sadness of my own, and even though I've been happy over the past years, I wasn't feeling very balanced. I couldn't afford to let any sadness in.
In my post a year after the death of my grandmother Ine, I talked a little bit about how I've changed/grown over the past year. I live more boldly. I'm feeling a lot more balanced and can afford to let people and things in that I've kept out for years. Not anyone or everything, I'm still pretty sensitive in some respects, but a lot more than before. The positives now outweigh the risks of hurting my nose by bumping into anything negative. Because I can cope with a hurt nose so much better now. And all the positive effects that come from tearing down my walls, all those (re-)strengthened and new connections I've made and good experiences I've had over the past year, make me able to cope with negative/hard stuff even better.
Earlier this month I attended a lecture on 'An Equal Music' (Vikhram Seth) by someone from my student coŲperation. The novel is about musicians and music plays a big part in it. There's a cd with the music from the book and we got to listen to some of it. There I was, in a room full of people, most of which I hardly know, being swept away by classical music. I wanted to crawl into a corner and sit on the floor with my arms wrapped around my knees and just sit in my own little bubble and listen. (Edit: not because I was feeling miserable, but to experience the music without distraction) I didn't, I just sat still in my chair, looking at the floor, my lap, the ceiling... It was intense. And it was beautiful.
I think I'm ready again.
Als puber/adolescent luisterde ik graag naar klassieke muziek (opera even buiten beschouwing gelaten). Wilma en Fred ondersteunden dit door me wat extra zakgeld te geven om cd's van te kopen, op voorwaarde dat het uitgegeven zou worden aan klassieke muziek. Mozart, Tchaikovsky, Verdi, Beethoven, Bach... Soms speelde ik ze af als ik 's avonds in bed lag, met het licht uit, om de muziek te kunnen ondergaan zonder afleiding.
Geplaatst op 27-09-2011.
Reactie van karinPrachtige muziek. Doet me denken aan Chinese muziek, die ik hoorde toen ik in Beijng was, vooral de fluittonen...
Reactie geplaatst op 2011-09-28.