Hi, my name is Thinkie, welcome to my blog!
I'm a student in cultural studies, a museum enthusiast, a scrapbooker and an art journaler. I love to travel within Europe and I enjoy photography. You can read more about me on my homepage.
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I live, I love, I create, I capture, I learn, I enjoy.
IneToday a year ago my grandmother Ine took her own life. I often think about how we found her, the image of what I saw that first second when I walked into the room is etched into my brain forever. But the nightmares have gone. And most of the time when that image pops up in my mind, it's not as detailed as it used to be.
Experiencing something like that makes it easier to let go of small worries and insecurities; to put things into perspective. I think I have become less shy and have opened up more towards others in the past year. I think I would have taken the step to start my studies anyway after finding the open university, but this gave me an extra push to go for it, life has to be lived to the fullest when you get the chance.
Ine was a special character. She sure as hell wasn't a cute old lady or a saint. She always encouraged me. She tried to carry her weight in society by volunteering, working with immigrants and homeless people. She was about woman's rights, she once said she wasn't a feminist, but she was about equality and emancipation. She took part in protests. She was part of a political group trying to improve the life of the poorer people in society. She taught me about setting your own priorities in life. She was a champion in carrying out long phonecalls, where you would hardly get a chance to react to what she was saying ;-) She liked to travel and loved gardening. She enjoyed crafting although the results were always terrible due to her utter lack of precision :-) She hated housekeeping. She loved dogs and kept a cat out of habit, as a companion for the dog. She was always carrying around bags of stuff, out of which came foods that couldn't be eaten anymore because she was simply horrible when it came to food hygene or preservation. That was not a good combination with her love of cooking, we had to be very creative in evading eating what she made without making her feel bad (especially me, with my stomach disorder) :-) She was very thoughtful in bringing people little gifts and sending postcards in her unreadable handwriting all the time. She always carried around those little photocameras for one-time use and took bad photographs with them because she never had the patience to aim properly (and needed glasses but always broke them). She was able to cause any electrical applyance to stop working in no time. She loved going to the zoo. She was someone who had you tearing at your hair and wanting to scream with frustration over het behaviour one moment and enjoying her company the next. She enjoyed acting and spend some time in the early nineties portraying a fishermans widow from Urk at the Zuiderzeemuseum. She was the star of celebrating little things in everyday life.
I have finally gotten around to scanning some of her photographs and would like to share a few of them with you.
Vandaag een jaar geleden benam mijn oma Ine zich het leven. Ik denk vaak aan hoe we haar vonden, het beeld van wat ik zag, de eerste seconde toen ik de kamer binnenkwam, staat voor altijd in m'n geheugen gegrift. Maar de nachtmerries zijn voorbij. En wanneer ik dat beeld weer voor ogen krijg is het meestal minder gedetailleerd dan in het begin.
Geplaatst op 16-06-2011.
Reactie van BeverleyHi Thinkie, what a lovely blog post dedicated to your Grandmother, she sounded like a very interesting person. You have "painted" a wonderful portrait of her, a very colourful character. Beverley
Reactie geplaatst op 2011-06-16.
Reactie van AnnemarieA wonderful tribute for an unique woman. I had no idea of the situation surrounding her passing. I hope you continue to find peace as time goes on. I am glad you have such interesting memories of Ine.
Reactie geplaatst op 2011-06-17.
Reactie van MaritWat een prachtig 'tribute' voor je oma Thinkie! Eerlijk, recht voor z'n raap, een beetje humor, een beetje verdriet... precies zoals ze ook was denk ik. Het komt helemaal over! Geweldig verwoordt meis!
Reactie geplaatst op 2011-06-18.